... ^___^

... I feel so disconnected from the world.

Sometimes I think it's ok. I might like it better that way. I hate the feeling of missing out on what's happening out there. So if I'm disconnected from the world, I might not care if I miss out on anything anymore.

But sometimes, when I realize how disconnected I already am from all the people and things that I was used to... I get this feeling of depression... Or maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe I just miss some things I was so used to. Maybe I just like the feeling of belonging somewhere.

I think I need a day of meditation... Or a week. A few days just for me... So I could finally relax, forget my problems and find my way back to the things I've always loved doing, dreams I've always had and activities I've always wanted to do...

Or maybe... I'm just really sleepy. XP

... and as they say, it's always important to savor each moment. :)

Had an amazing, surprising, heart-warming, wild, unforgettable [insert adjective here] birthday celebration last week with my one and only love, friends, co-workers and family. Looking forward to my next birthday already :P But I'm not in a hurry just yet. I actually hate the fact that I'm getting older each passing minute. I don't know. I think I have this obsession with staying young -- or at least young-looking :P

As happy as last week was, this coming week might be the toughest for me yet. The love of my life [yeah I know it's cheesy XP but I think one cannot help to be cheesy when in love XP], is set to leave for London on the 21st. It's a family thing. I think it's great that she'll get to take up post-graduate studies there, work part-time and have an adventure in another country. I've decided as well to do everything I can to follow her there. Everything seems fine and happy every time we talk about it but later on, what we both really feel deep down always comes up. We get teary eyed at the near end of the discussion whenever we can't help but recognize how far we'll be from each other and the uncertainty of the time we won't physically see each other. Sure there's all these internet stuff that we can rely on to keep in touch but the simple hugs and kisses will be really tough to miss.

I'll be joining her family in taking her to the airport and all. Just really hope that I don't breakdown in front of them all once she disappears into the plane. I've been aware of the possibility of her going to London 2 years ago but I never thought that it would come so soon and would leave behind so many uncertainties. It's heartbreaking that we won't see each other physically for a while. Nevertheless, I'm the happiest creature alive just knowing how much she loves me [another cheesy moment... and more to come XP]. Time will surely pass by quickly until we see each other again.

At least one thing's for sure... that it's gonna be the two of us in the end... no matter what. :)

Have a safe trip dearest! Bon voyage ma meilleure moitié! See you soon! ^_____^